Dreaming

People have all sorts of hopes and dreams. Landing their dream job, school goals, that size 2 body, etc. Sure, I daydream now and then about what life would be like if I had _________. But one thing that I have always wanted is a baby. I don't care if I am blessed with one or TEN-- I just know that I want to be a mom.

There are so many things that I lacked in my childhood that I want to make sure I get right with my kids. I know there will be frustrating days when my baby won't stop crying, my house is a mess, my husband is off at work, I'm covered in spit up, and I haven't slept in days.I know there will be days when I feel heartbroken because my child is humiliated by a friend, bullied on the playground, or embarrassed for not knowing the answer in class. I know there will be days when I can't stop worrying because my teenager is making bad decisions and I won't know how to steer them in the right direction. But I also know that every single day of that baby's life, it will be told how in love with him/her I am. I will always remind them-- and myself-- how badly I yearned for them. I will make sure that baby will grow up surrounded by love.

I know that now is not the time for that change in my life. But I do know that this is something I have always wanted. I have found contentment with those other things. No, I'm not a writer like I planned, and my size 8 is not as close to a size 2 as I'd prefer. But I have been blessed with this life I've been given, and the only thing I still dream about, is the day I get to hold my child in my arms!

Blog-stalking today, I came across this photo that just makes my heart melt. One day this will be mine =)

Just realized I saved this photo on my desktop and now I can't remember whose blog this was! So, not to discredit someone... this is an amazing shot that I am in love with!