Friends

Over the past 5-ish years, I have lost connections. I still call my friends "friends", but all of those relationships are lacking depth. I miss the days when I could call up any number of friends and just sit in each others' rooms listening to music, talking about boys, and laughing. When did we all grow up so much and have to "host" a night in? Some things are the same... we still talk about boys (well, the men we are all blessed to have given our hearts to), and that is fun and occasionally gets deep. But I miss my girlfriends. I miss seeing them. I feel like life is all about work and scraping together enough time to spend with the man I love. It's about finding time to nap in the middle of the afternoon because I'm exhausted every day. Trying to squeeze every ounce of energy into spending time with my family and making those relationships important.

Here I am, ready to start this venture with a new job, and I still feel lost. It all sort of came crashing down on me tonight. I am so fulfilled in many areas of my life, but I'm starting to realize that there are many other areas that I have been neglecting and it's starting to take a toll. I want to make some new friends. And more importantly, I want to re-connect with the old ones. I want some depth. I want to have lazy days in my best friends' bedroom.