My sweet little girl, it is time for me to say goodbye to you as you introduce yourself to the world. You’ve been growing inside of me for nine months and I just know I am going to miss this special time we’ve shared. Being pregnant has been no walk in the park, but it is something I have always wanted and feared I might never experience. I was more than ecstatic when that little stick read “Pregnant” the first time. Your dad was at work so I had nobody to share the news with. I just kept pacing the house saying “Oh my gosh! Oh my gosh! Oh my gosh!” I have zero patience with secrets so as soon as he came home from work, he had a box to unwrap and inside was that first little glimpse he had of being a dad- my positive pregnancy test!
The first few weeks brought a few challenges: at our first doctor’s appointment, the ultrasound only showed a gestational sac, but no sign of baby. We were heart-broken to say the least, but the doctor sent me to get some bloodwork done and had me come back to his office a couple weeks later to see if anything had progressed. We were scared and stressed, but hopeful that God had a little baby cooking inside of me. We got an ultrasound on January 26th and saw the first signs of you. We could not have been happier! There were quite a few challenges the first few months of pregnancy and I always feared losing you. Once we entered the second trimester, I started feeling a lot better and began to let myself get used to the idea of you sticking around.
Your daddy and I had a feeling you were a little girl from the very beginning so we were filled with so much joy when an ultrasound confirmed that! We spent many days shopping for cute outfits for you and fun things for your nursery. We talk about you all the time and we are so anxious to hold you for the first time. We have taken a lot of classes to prepare for you and we are pouring so much love into your little nursery. I am so grateful that we’ve been able to spend this time together. I have felt so much joy from your little kicks and you rolling around—something your dad loves to watch, but only I get to really experience it! I am so anxious to see you- I just know you are going to be perfect and beautiful! This past month has allowed me to totally fall in love with you and prepare myself for my world to be completely rocked. I have so many fears of being a parent… there are so many things I am going to mess up! But I know that I already have so much love for you and I can only imagine how much stronger that is going to grow when we meet.
You could be coming any day now. I’m due in 3 weeks, but I have a feeling you’re coming early. As I enjoy this last bit of time with you to myself, there are a few things I want you to know. You are so loved already. Your daddy already has such a huge, kind heart, but watching him talk about you is something special. I can’t wait to see him hold you and love on you. I want you to know how much I wanted you. We go our entire lives hearing people say they love us and that we mean so much to them. But even more than that, I want you to know just how wanted you are. Getting pregnant was such a HUGE blessing and I am still in awe that we made it this far. I have wanted to be a mommy for as long as I can remember and spent so much time crying out to God asking for a little baby. I am so grateful for His timing because you were given to us at a perfect time. I love you so much and am so excited to start this little family of ours!
See you soon,
Your Mom =)
